ENERGY
We call back the energy. Initiation into manhood is not easy. But we try to make it as sexy as possible.
The masculine has been interrupted. Not erased, but pressured, softened, distorted, and pushed into silence. Especially in men who love other men. Yet it may be those very men who carried the masculine principle forward through time. Not through dominance or spectacle, but through intimacy, embodiment, devotion to the body, and the courage to feel desire without apology. Masculinity does not vanish when it is suppressed. it goes underground. it survives in touch, in presence, in brotherhood, in the refusal to be ashamed of wanting.
ENERGY LYRICS
i call back the energy
they told me to waste
the fire they said was dangerous
the hunger they told me to suppress
they told me to cover up
and now i stand naked
i look in the mirror
see the lines of my body
my chest, my arms, my legs, my face, my dick
i am a man
i call back the energy
i stand here now
not to deny it
not to shame it
not to drown it in distraction
i stand here to listen
i touch myself freely
nothing off limits
no sense of shame
i let the erotic rise like a flame
i call back the energy
this heat in my body is not an enemy
it is not a problem to solve
it is not a weakness to overcome
it’s not something to repress or suppress it’s something to undress
it is life knocking from the inside
i call back the energy
this force that rises in me
has worn many masks
desire
restlessness
obsession
compulsion
addiction
but beneath the mask
it is power
pure and undivided
it is whole
it is me
i have scattered it
i have feared it
i have spent it cheaply
quick flings with broken things
today, i gather it
i call back the energy
i call back the energy
i call back the energy
i refuse the lie that says
my longing is something small
something dirty
something to escape
something to hide
i call back the energy
i refuse the lie that tells me
to numb myself
to drain myself
to turn this fire into noise
to chase others
to chase orgasm
to chase love
i can love myself
i can be with myself
i can turn myself on
i am turning myself on
i call back the energy
i turn inward
feel my skin
run my hands over my body
i let the current move
through thought
through breath
through will
through desire
yes, the desire
i call back the energy
you can call it back, too
touch yourself with me
let’s call back the energy
we allow this energy
to become clarity
to become creativity
to become truth
what once pulled us outward
now draws us deeper
what once demanded release
now asks for awareness
we do not conquer this force
we do not cage it
we walk with it
we let desire teach us and show us
where are we split
where are we asleep
where are we afraid to feel
are you with me?
i call back the energy
i let it show me
what wants to be born
this energy is not here to own me
it is here to serve my becoming
whole
i stand rooted
awake
present
naked
aware
sensual
turned on
hard
i look at myself
not merely a man
but a man entering the brotherhood of all men
we call back the energy
we stand together in spirit
and in rooms such as these
we choose transformation
over escape
we choose consciousness
over compulsion
we choose conservation
over release
we choose to become
what this fire was always meant to shape
you are a man
don’t be afraid
let yourself go
listen to my voice
this energy is yours to own
call it back
touch
feel
breathe
it’s time to let go
do it
release
let go
do it
we call back the energy
come with me
do it
let go
come on
let go
let the boy die
become a man
with me
